Today is our son's birthday. He is 34. We haven't heard a word from him since July 11. We haven't been particularly close for years and twice before I have been shut out of his life and that of his family. This marks the first time he has shut his dad out. He hasn't even told us why he has chosen to cut us out of his life, but it's not difficult to figure out that it is because we don't share his political and social beliefs. Me and our daughter, we are pretty much over it. There is a sadness (especially where the grandchildren are concerned), but honestly, there is also some sense of relief. My husband, though, he's hurting.
I could wallow in my loss today, but it won't do any good. My conscience is clear. I have not responded in kind, nor will I ever. If he comes back around, my son will be welcomed. I sent him a card expressing our love and hope that he is happy and well. No gift was included, however, as I will not reward bad behavior and disrespect. I have put him in God's hands and pray that one day he will open his heart to truth and love.
So I am focusing on the good in life. Today I get to babysit the younger grands again. We are going to bake Halloween cookies while Mom goes to a doctor's appointment. I stayed with them yesterday while Mom got a mammogram. We had macaroni and cheese for lunch.
These two precious children are a balm to my heart. I cannot imagine life without them.
Oh, on a not so good note...when my husband got home from work yesterday and got out of his truck he noticed the paint all around the top of the door was scratched and the metal was full of little dents. Someone obviously tried to pry open the door. It's dark when he leaves for work and he didn't notice all day, so we don't know if it happened at home, on his job site, or while he was at Home Depot today. Tomorrow he will have them search the security video at the job site and see if Home Depot will do the same. Thank goodness it is fully insured and will be fixed. It's just an irritating inconvenience and a sad commentary on the state of the world.
Things to be thankful for:
11. The truck wasn't damaged any more than it was and they didn't succeed in getting into it.
12. The 18 good years we had with our son before he left home.
13. Yesterday's tests seem to confirm the lump in our daughter's breast is a cyst.
14. Our daughter talked me into going to the mall yesterday afternoon and buying a Halloween costume for the little one. It's a unicorn. She loved it and came over to model it for me last night. So cute! I wasn't able to get a picture...you'll have to wait on that.
15. The boy liked the clothes I got for him. He is particularly fond of the dinosaur jammies with feet that look like dinosaur heads.
16. Your kind words about the change in blogging format.
I love you, O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. I call to the Lord, who is worthy of praise, and I am saved from my enemies. Ps. 18:1-3